random thoughts of a restless mind

This one was a bit unexpected for me too...it’s been long I wrote Something....even longer I posted it on the blog.... some stuff I couldn’t Share...some weren’t worth sharing....so I just thought of writing arbit Thoughts..... I know it’s gonna be my 4th sleepless night because of Injury....its 4:45 in the morning and I don’t have pretty much to do. The Philosophical part of me was haunting me too much.... he wanted to Scribble through the clear white of notepad, and I am helpless. May be Some ppl would find me stupid after reading it and might not even agree To it, but with due respect....I don’t care much :).

I feel like, I desperately wanna turn into a year old boy..... Careless, fearless, innocent, adorable, least connected with the world around...u take away his toys...he would cry for some time...and then would again turn happy as soon as he falls into somebody’s arms with love.....ready to start fresh....always ready to accept a change.

I lately realized that... in love...its always the weaker who wins....always the weaker.. be it between god and humans (at least I most of the time get him to do things the way I wanted)..... a child and parents( isn’t it the love between them.... which makes the weak kid so powerful that he can turn the whole house upside down even at 3am in the morning). The reason I suppose is simple.... the essence of love is in giving.....think yourself.... we always wanna GIVE to ppl we love..... our parents always are on the giving side....even when they are old and aren’t earning....they can’t help the feelings to GIVE...GIVE.

Also, the essence of happiness is in the desire to have something..... or as they say....wanting is more fun than having.... and happiness lasts only till the time u still want it......imagine that u love some dish (say Maggi).... and I want it desperately.... now after having 1 noodles.... u might be happy...satisfied....after having 2 in a row?? ...stomach is full, isn’t it??...u no more desire it....now if I force the 3rd and 4th Noodle? would u be happier or sad? after say 6 noodles?? I bet u would hate maggi for say next 1 week at least...fun wasn’t inside maggi....it was the desire for maggi which was working..as soon as the desire for maggi was over ...there wasn’t much fun in the same noodles....it lasted only till the moment u still had desire for it. Or to say more precisely..... THE FUN WAS IN THE WISH BEING FULFILLED.....throughout life...we strive to fulfill our desires....make more wishes....and cycle goes on.....I feel like....happiness comes when we get over any new wish..... I Seriously wanna try it....at least once ....for some time.... have a state of mind with no desires....because I feel.... though a fulfilled desire would bring some happiness...unfulfilled ones bring sorry too....I wanna stand for SOME TIME at the crossroads of this... get above this HAPPY n SAD thing.... i know this would be like a dead man....no feelings...no sensitiveness...but ya...i wanna get comfortably numb...may be for just a few days.... GOD!!! U LISTENING?? :)